Its not okay to eat fish.

What do you guys think of the whole hologram happenings? I don't know if I should be creeped out or if I should be absolutely amazed. I think maybe for me its both . I'm so amazed that I'm creeped out or I'm so creeped out that I'm amazed I don't know exactly what to think. but those are the two initial reactions to it, are they not? Personally holograms blow my mind. You may have your own opinions.







I broke my headphones (sad face). When I say that I don't mean that I listened to music at high volumes causing them to stop working, That's not the issue here, its that I actually broke them. They are no longer headphones they're just, a broken, thing.

I've been trying to do this vegetarian deal. So that means all I've ate today is carrots, garlic bread sticks, and some popcorn.

I'm starving.

How do people do this?

I don't know how long this will last. I really don't want to eat meat anymore, I feel like such a murderer. I'd like to say I'm sorry to all the chickens everywhere, I once ate you in nugget form and for that I hate myself.

Speaking of animals. I have got to stop feeding Garfunkel every hour he's getting fat as a turd.

-Liz

Garfunkel

A few days ago, on a whim, I decided that I wanted a fish. Mostly because I'm lonely and pathetic, and because I really like fish.
I got a goldfish, (yes a goldfish) and at the time I didn't know really what I had gotten myself into. The reason I picked this specific goldfish is because he was all alone in the tank, so maybe he was just as lonely and pathetic as I was.
He didn't seem to be sick (Most pet stores take other fish out of the tank, where one is sick so to protect them from getting whatever disease the sick fish has.) he was swimming around with a lot of enthusiasm. Which raises a lot of questions about why he was alone, like "Did they sell all the other fish in that tank?" "Was he aggressive toward other fish?"
"Did he eat all the other fish in the tank?"
"Is he like Christian Bale in that American Psycho film? Did he go after the other fish with a chainsaw?"
All questions that didn't occur to me until after I had purchased him.
After getting the fish home and researching. Because lets face it goldfish die supposedly very fast. And I had already bonded with my pathetically lonely friend and wanted him to live forever and ever and never die. I needed to know how to keep him alive, and since they don't give out pamphlets on "How to keep one's goldfish alive" I searched the inter-webs for answers.
I found out that goldfish absolutely must have an air pump, if you want them to live any length of time, which I didn't have. So I had to purchase an air pump, a new tank, a bag of rocks, and a tank accessory in the form of a whale with a gaping mouth for Garfunkel (my fishes name. At first I planned to call him Achilles and then I remembered that Achilles died very young and that felt like a curse.) to go into and a hole in the stomach for him to come out of. Having to wait to get the air pump and for the water to filter I had to keep a close watch on Garfunkel and make sure he was still alive and change the water he was in frequently. It was very stressful for me and Garfunkel and wouldn't have been, had I been prepared.
Here's my advice.
1- Don't buy goldfish on a whim.
2- Make sure you research different types of fish before you decide to purchase one.
3- Don't name your fish Achilles.

-Liz

Self- deprecation

I've been dealing with PTSD, I'm not 100%, I'm not even 10%, I'm still loading. By that I mean that I'm not all there. Its 2:30 a.m.

I'm lying here in bed, thinking about life/spam texting my sister, and I have to tell you, I'm very disappointed in myself. When I was a kid I aspired to become Michelangelo  from the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. I've failed myself. I took a good, long, hard look in the mirror (metaphorically speaking, I cant stand looking at my face for that long) and I noticed that I'm nowhere near Teenage Ninja Turtle Material.

Mutant, yes. Ninja. no.

I've let my six year old self down. 

I also acknowledge that I never moved in with my best friend from first grade (as planned in first grade), to a house on the beach with lots of windows, where no boys are allowed. I'm a disgrace to my Youthful expectations!! If you need me I'll just be in the back of my closet sitting on my shoes and crying. Sorry for crushing your dreams little me, I'm also sorry about that haircut, you should have thought that one through a little more. It'll grow, you must endure. 

I have another bad haircut now actually, its literally as if everything and nothing has changed!! I woke up yesterday and said to myself "Hey! I think I'll make my hair wavy and poofy and dry looking" which was a bad idea because I ended up looking like Ginger from "As told by Ginger"

I leave you with this. 

-Liz

Life hates me.

Its sad, when you spend every waking moment talking with someone and then realize you don't really know who they are. Then they tell YOU they cant take anymore of the relationship. There's a hole inside me now, that no amount of Food City Deli cupcakes can fill. Do you feel sorry for me yet? I'm going to go buy a bunch of music from Amazon. Maybe that will fill the void, I highly doubt it. I don't know what to do to make myself feel better.

-Liz

Tegan and Sara - I Was A Fool

Little did I know.

   In case you didn't know, I graduated high school about two years ago, and have been looking for the right college. I've been searching for a while now, (I still haven't decided, if you think that's what this is about) but I've been searching schools. I've looked everywhere. Honestly. I've went from the local community college to online colleges, to ITT tech ( oh yes, Its went that far) and still, nothing. While I've been trying to finish a course from EDX.ORG which is an awesome site that lets you try out college courses from places such as HARVARD, I decided to look up different art schools, who knows maybe I'd actually get into one. I know I'd love to get involved with art and learn more about it, but I'm not quite sure about myself.
     Anyway, while I was looking through the top art schools in the United States, I came across one by the name of:

"Rhode Island School of Design"

    Number 2, on the list, right underneath Yale, typical me, I Google that stuff. Was I surprised when I saw the images that came up from the search. Go ahead search it yourself. 

    I'm glad I came across this school, I might look into this one. And if I don't, at least they succeeded in making me laugh. Thank you RISD. You're one of a kind.

    Liz

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